Finding Direction

With the recent passing of this blog’s second birthday and a third web site slowly being completed, I started to question the direction I wanted to go with each site I own and where I wanted to go with life in general.

Lately I am often confused. I ask myself a series of questions pertaining to my blogs, my life and my career aspirations.

With the blogs I ask, “Is CPC done for? Have I outgrown it? What about Who Took My Donut? I was gung-ho at the end of December and it’s already waned some.”

With life I frequently ask, “What the hell do you want?”

In two of my three classes (both of them being journalism), our future careers and career choices are drilled into our heads. “As you move further in your career you need to consider…[insert goal, item, object here].” I sit there and think, “I have no career aspiration. I just want my effing degree.”

Unfortunately, this has led to even more confusion along with frustration and some guilt. And it has found its way into my blogs, my writing and my photography. Confusion…thy name is Kim.

I don’t know what to do. The only thing remaining consistent is my determination to lose weight and get healthy. It’s the one thing I can control despite outside forces attempting to lure me back the dark side.

What is a girl…er, woman to do?

Regarding my sites I’ve had a thought (or three):

• Let CPC go. It has had a hell of a run but maybe it’s time to move on.
• Change kimulmanis.com from a photography web site to a blog focused on a writing career.
• Keep CPC, continue writing Who Took My Donut?, let kimulmanis.com be the professional site, and purchase a new domain for photography.

The final bullet point has made the most sense since I am not ready to let this blog go. I realize it’s possible to run four sites (five if you count the photography site for hubby and I) but when your ability to be disciplined and consistent is weak the confidence levels drop ridiculously low.

And with me being in school, well, that’s one hell of a workload. The one good thing about it is not all sites will need to be managed or have something posted regularly. The three blogs can alternate depending on need and interest.

Because let’s face it, when it comes to writing (and even my photography) I have moments where I have zero interest and my energies are better used elsewhere.

I have a lot to think about and a lot to consider. I’d like to say I am confident I will get it worked out before my head explodes but that’s questionable right now. Following the decision made in yesterday’s post I am somewhat determining what direction I do need to take but it’s been slow as evidenced by this post.

At best, I’ll have four sites running. At worse, I’ll have two blogs running and put a majority of my focus into my classes. In any event, for now this blog is not going anywhere. If I do decide to pull the plug it won’t be until late this year. Just have to wait and see as time goes on, obviously.